I am home from school, yet another day. I don't know how long my job can suffer this. Emotionally, I'm a wreck.
Marissa had an episode last night. I don't know what else to call it. She was fine until about 8:00 when I told her "no" to her request of using the computer to play her ipod in the bathroom while she took a bath.
She could not accept no for an answer. She became louder and louder, obnoxious, name calling, disobedient. She wouldn't walk away from me. She baited me to hit her to make her mind, which I didn't do, of course. She physically took the computer and ignored my decisions. She pushed me away as I retrieved the computer.
I told her that all her actions were inappropriate and that she wasn't leaving me very many choices. I really believed that she would become more violent. She was unreasonable and made no sense.
I told her I was going to call pdoc. I did. Of course, I got voice mail, but as I was leaving a message, Marissa stormed downstairs and locked herself in her room.
I argued and argued with her to unlock her door. (couldn't find the key) She finally did.
I checked on her a couple times through the night. Sleeping deeply.
This morning, doesn't want to get up. When she did, she went to the other bathroom, coughed loudly a few times, then came to me in our other bathroom to tell me that she just heaved. I responded cooly with reminding her that pdoc said that she would not have any side effects today because she has not taken lithium for 48 hours.
No fever. Just acting. I think.
I told her to get her butt ready for school.
She went back to bed - and I couldn't get her up.
I went to school to get ready for a substitue - now I am home waiting for pdoc to call with help. She is still sleeping, however, not as deeply. I check on her and she mumbles and moves a little.
I am afraid to be alone with her. I'm not afraid for my safety, but for our relationship. I don't want it to escalate into physical fights.
I also don't want to feel manipulated and used.
Marissa had an episode last night. I don't know what else to call it. She was fine until about 8:00 when I told her "no" to her request of using the computer to play her ipod in the bathroom while she took a bath.
She could not accept no for an answer. She became louder and louder, obnoxious, name calling, disobedient. She wouldn't walk away from me. She baited me to hit her to make her mind, which I didn't do, of course. She physically took the computer and ignored my decisions. She pushed me away as I retrieved the computer.
I told her that all her actions were inappropriate and that she wasn't leaving me very many choices. I really believed that she would become more violent. She was unreasonable and made no sense.
I told her I was going to call pdoc. I did. Of course, I got voice mail, but as I was leaving a message, Marissa stormed downstairs and locked herself in her room.
I argued and argued with her to unlock her door. (couldn't find the key) She finally did.
I checked on her a couple times through the night. Sleeping deeply.
This morning, doesn't want to get up. When she did, she went to the other bathroom, coughed loudly a few times, then came to me in our other bathroom to tell me that she just heaved. I responded cooly with reminding her that pdoc said that she would not have any side effects today because she has not taken lithium for 48 hours.
No fever. Just acting. I think.
I told her to get her butt ready for school.
She went back to bed - and I couldn't get her up.
I went to school to get ready for a substitue - now I am home waiting for pdoc to call with help. She is still sleeping, however, not as deeply. I check on her and she mumbles and moves a little.
I am afraid to be alone with her. I'm not afraid for my safety, but for our relationship. I don't want it to escalate into physical fights.
I also don't want to feel manipulated and used.
